Sunday, August 9, 2009

I Want To Jump Too

I know you are wondering what the universe said to me...and while I intended to write about it straight away (if nothing at least quiet the baby rumors!!!)...the universe had other things in mind for me this week.

It was a full and eventful week as we watched Melanie's 3 boys. They were angels...but add three more kids to mix, and my house is a little nuts. (I didn't even remember to take photos (gasp) ... that's how crazy it was.)

But...back to what the universe was saying.

I have been reading this blog...about a man who found out he has cancer and how he is coming to grips with what this means for his life.

And David has gotten me to think...about my own life and my purpose.

I have been thinking a lot about trials and the experiences that make us who we are.

Every choice we make...every step we take leads us down one path or another.

And sometimes...if we are, no...lucky isn't the right word here.

Sometimes...if we are deliberate, conscious, knowing...we take the steps that we are supposed to take. We live the life we were meant to live.

Now, I suppose this is the ideal life, however, there are times in our lives where we just put one foot in front of the other and go, regardless of the direction.

Well, I have been doing a lot of that lately.

For whatever reason, I have spent the better part of the last year filling up my days...and still not having enough time for the things that really matter.

Does your life get like that?

Well, I have been feeling (strongly) like I need to take my life back...and be a little more deliberate. To have care in where I choose to spend my time.

I guess, the bottom line for me, is that I have been feeling "casual" in my spiritual quest...and it's time to have a little more purpose.

I still need to put one foot in front of the other...but this time...I want it to make sure it means something.

So...if you (Troy) were waiting for me to tell you we are having another baby then i'm sorry to disappoint. But...right now, I'm just grateful the universe and I are on speaking terms.


onehm said...

Thank you for sharing.
I too, want to jump. It's nice to have company...


Puhlman said...

Denise...I feel this way SO much. I am so grateful you can see what needs to be done. We just spoke in Sacrament meeting yesterday on FAMILIES. It really made me think. I loved preparing for it and seeing that I really need to focus more time and energy in that area.

Thank you for sharing something personal with the rest of us. I am pretty sure most of us feel the same way.

You are a good example. I know you will be able to do this and that your testimony will only grow as you do.

alexandra said...

If you can figure out how to do that with your six kids and all of your commitments, let me know the secret. Not to put any added pressure on you.

Recently, my lack of "quality" scripture study has been on my mind (must be the universe trying to speak!) I keep thinking that I really need to go to institute this year as part of setting my own priorities in order. I really have no excuse not to. It's during preschool so I'd only have to miss on the days I teach. And I think having a schedule each week and a deadline is something I need. And if I've got that as a scheduled time commitment, it's easier to tell other would-be time committers that I've got other things going on.

We'll have to share notes about what's working and what's not.

The Beatty Beehive said...

Thanks for the insights! You are such an inspiration!
love you!

Hilary said...

So, you tell us you're going to deliberately get pregnant? :) Not with just some random guy this time? :)
And yes, I am very funny.

Kimber said...

I also had one of those "aha" moments yesterday. It makes me wonder if Heavenly Father is warning us to get spiritually prepared for trials that might lie ahead.

Heather said...

How uncanny... I've been following David's story too. It's really placed everything in my life in the proper perspective - to be aware that absolutely nothing happens accidentally, including the purposeful OR haphazard way I approach my days.

I hear ya, sister. I hear ya.

lbugsh2 said...

Scott and I have been using a website to help us remember to read our scriptures more. IF you want it let me know. It emails me to remind me to read. I am lame I need it.

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