It's been 5 days since the surgery and recovery is going about as expected.
The surgery itself went very well. Although an hour longer than the doctor expected. She said everything looked good, but she was glad that I had chosen to do it, as it was very needed.
The first few days were a little rough. Moving around and changing positions was very difficult. It brought back memories of being in the hospital with the twins and needing people to help me roll over.
I am so grateful that my parents are here. They have been amazing and I just cannot imagine trying to do this without them. Everything is taken care of and I can totally focus on getting better.
It's kind of weird being so focused on recovering and trying to let everything else go. Other parts of my life keep trying to creep in, but I am doing my best to say no. It hasn't been 100% successful...as I said yes a couple of times I really should have said no...but I can't be perfect right out of the gate, right?
Tonight as I was thinking about how glad I am to have this behind me...I did have a small twinge of...I don't even know what as I thought about how my child bearing years are well and truly behind me now.
I have loved having each of my children and I feel so blessed to be their mom. And although it wasn't regret...it was a little moment of something.
Thank you for all your thoughts and prayers on my behalf. I have felt incredibly loved.